TALK TO JESUS

OK- lets start by this is not some wild bible pushing piece. But I have a firm belief in releasing energy into the atmosphere or universe as some would like to say. So basically this is a POSTIVE energy post. I believe that when you ask, write, or talk about something enough, you generally receive what your asking for. There is also a warning with this, be careful what you ask for, it may not actually be what you want. Personally, I feel comfort in picturing a face, and seeing as he is the man of the hour, I like to talk to Jesus. The past year I was having trouble finding my mojo, self esteem, confidence in my barrel racing and program. I have created some exceptional athletes over my career, but at this point in time, the wind was not in my sails.  And I sat down and thought back to when I had the most success, in life, in competition, and in my training, One specific thing kept coming to mind, every night I was on the road, away from home, alone, whether I had driven 5 or 15 hours and was bagged, was I would lay in bed and have a chat with the big man. At that point in time, I didn't even realize how influencing my chats were. So starting the end of May last year (2017), which was about the time I started feeling like myself, confident, producing a confident, amazing athlete, is when I reconnected with my friend Jesus. The best thing about those chats is that you can tell him anything, and he only listens. There is no second guessing about him sharing your confidential information, or worse twisting your words into something you kind of said but didn’t really mean in the way its being portrayed. And when something is so secretive, that you can literally share your deepest wishes, desires, and most of all, you actually FIND them! So in my chat’s I talk about how things were during my day, how I want them to be, what I was thankful for during the day, how I wanted better quality prospects to start with, and I ended every chat with thanking him for being alive, because no matter how bad each day is, that is the one gift that each and every person takes for granted. We are still breathing, eating, and LIVING. And by living, it gives us the power to make choices to better ourselves each day. As some, but not many people know or remember, 2010 granted the kiss of death into my life, and over the next 2 years, I would lose SIX significant people in my life. When I say significant, I mean.... been involved with me nearly all my life, significant. And I also lost the horse who I believe was going to take me to my first National Finals Rodeo mid season. Tragically, unexpectedly, and suddenly. You want to talk about having to deal with some "crap" that's the baseline for a good recipe. But I have found great peace in restarting my chats with Jesus. In those chats, I even talk to all six of those people. And somewhere over time, I have come to a place of understanding, that even though I miss those six people (plus a few more now) more than anything, I am so lucky to have them watching over me, every day. I have a peaceful certainty, that each day, I am protected by a small army. And that, is truly a gift.

Because when I was younger, and my sweet and sassy Baba (Grandmother for you non Ukrainians), was religious, and somehow over years of repetition, installed the lord’s prayer in my memory, I also include that. I rarely say my prayers/chats out loud. I just say them in my head, and say amen. But you know what, because I was notably speaking or at least thinking my wishes, some of them started coming true! And more importantly, I noticed every change, and positive event! When I was fortunate enough to purchase my Firewaterontherocks SON, I knew that was gods hand reaching down, and placing this amazing gift in my care. It was one of the first moments of 2017, that I felt refreshed. And with Fast Eddie, came a wonderful friendship, and soon to be journey when he gets to present himself to the world. ( We are so EXCITED). We care for all our prospects and horses, but there is truly something magical about Fast Eddie. I am completely infatuated with him. I’ve even asked for good weather, and safety for my animals, and family. Sounds simple right, well it is. Whether there is control over these things or not, I still want to put the good vibes out there for everyone within my circle. And from a trainer’s perspective, sometimes I just need SOLUTIONS. Have you ever had that ah-hum moment when you suddenly know, exactly the changes to make, and when to do them, and how to do them. Somehow knowing or believing for a 100% fact they will work. Amazing right! Did you all read Haley Kinsel’s interview about winning the American last year, and her certainty in her decisions leading into that win? If not, seriously, find it, and then read this and tell me there is not a connection?

One thing I have learned over my career, is that if the winners are doing it, it is probably for a damn good reason. You may not understand the reason at first, but one day you will. And you will have even more respect for those individuals, for not only their ability to perform, but their immense intellectual ability.

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